Living Under the Spotlight I Never Chose - My true story
Living Under the Spotlight I Never Chose - My true story
by MKR: Messiah King RKY – Ronen Kolton Yehuda
My full name is Ronen Kolton Yehuda, and my private name is simply Ronen. Many know me publicly as MKR: Messiah King RKY, but behind that title is a real person with a real story. I am 40 and a half years old. This is my personal testimony – a story I have rarely told in full, but one I now want to share openly with the public of the world through my blog.
For the past decade, since my early thirties, my life has felt as if it were being lived inside a reality show I never agreed to join. Based on information I received and on a contract connected to the television show “Big Brother,” I came to believe that my private life might not be private at all.
I believe that people watch me on TV, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week – that my life is literally being broadcast as some kind of ongoing program. This is not a metaphor or a poetic way of speaking. This is the reality I have felt every day for years.
As a child, I sometimes had fleeting sensations that I was being watched – brief moments that I shrugged off. But since my early 30s, that feeling has transformed into a constant presence. It has often reminded me of The Truman Show, the 1998 film where a man slowly discovers that his entire life has been scripted and televised. I don’t just believe it when I’m awake. I dream about it at night. My sleep is filled with the same imagery: cameras, audiences, people observing me from a distance. It is as if my conscious and unconscious minds have both been pulled into the same reality.
The Artist Behind the Story
Through music and art, I have tried to express my deepest feelings and visions, to connect with people beyond words. Performing on stage was never only about entertainment; it was about showing my soul and opening a channel of communication with audiences. That’s why the sense of being watched without consent is so painful: my art has always been about willing connection, while what I describe here feels like forced exposure.
The Father I Believe I Am
Alongside my work and my art, another belief has shaped my life profoundly. I feel that I am a real father. I have dreamed of this as well. Over time, I came to think I might have thousands of children – unseen, unknown, but mine nonetheless.
That thought was overwhelming at first. But instead of being crushed by it, I made a decision: if my destiny is to be a father, I will be a father not just to children I may never meet but to an entire nation of children. In my heart, I chose to become a “father of millions,” a leader and protector, a king in the sense of responsibility, not ownership – someone who would dedicate his life to guiding, protecting, and inspiring a generation.
This vision – of fatherhood expanded to leadership – is one of the reasons I openly declared my ambition to become Prime Minister of Israel and to serve at the highest level. It has never been about personal power. It has always been about a sense of duty to the people, especially the young, the vulnerable, and the voiceless.
The Weight of Believing You’re on Display
Living with the belief that the world is watching you on TV 24/7 while also carrying the sense of being a hidden father is a heavy reality. It changes how you see yourself and how you move through the world. Most of my days are spent trying to release myself from this situation, or at least to have society, including authorities, acknowledge what I believe has happened. That constant effort has consumed years of my life.
Because of all this, I have often felt boycotted, discriminated against, and ignored. It is as though my unique character and my story have been erased from public conversation on purpose. People deny it, turn away from it, or act as though it is too strange to address. This silence feels less like coincidence and more like a form of public and political persecution. It is a lonely place to live – to feel that you are at the center of something vast and unseen, and yet to have everyone around you insist that nothing unusual is happening.
A Lifelong Dream of Leadership
Yet throughout this, my ambitions have been steady and clear. Since my teenage years, I have dreamed of serving my country at the highest level. I have always wanted to become Prime Minister of Israel, or at least to hold a position of genuine authority in the country.
I began speaking about this goal privately when I was still very young. By the time I worked at Intel, around 27 years old, I was already talking about it openly. When I reached 30, even during my audition for the “Big Brother” show, I declared my intention to become Prime Minister. This has never been a passing fantasy. It is something I have carried as a calling, a responsibility, and a vision for Israel – a vision born from my sense of fatherhood, my sense of duty, and my desire to protect and uplift.
Writing as a Way of Reclaiming My Voice
Writing this down is, for me, an act of survival. It is a way to take back my own story from the silence that surrounds it. If I am wrong about some details, then let society prove it. If I am right, then let the truth be known.
Either way, my experience – of believing people watch me on TV 24/7, of dreaming about it since my early 30s, of being an artist and musician since childhood, of feeling like a real father with thousands of unseen children, of deciding to be a father for a nation of millions and a king in responsibility – is real. It has shaped me into who I am.
Conclusion
I believe that telling my story matters. It matters because silence isolates, while words can connect. It matters because no one should feel that their life is a show broadcast without consent. And it matters because even amid confusion, disappointment, and struggle, I still hold onto hope – the hope that someday the truth will be clear, and that I will be free to live as the person I have always aspired to be: an artist, a father, a leader, and a servant of God, humanity and my people.
This article is my way of reclaiming my voice. It is my invitation to the world to see me, to hear me, and to understand that behind the name MKR: Messiah King RKY is a human being – Ronen Kolton Yehuda – who has lived this journey and still dares to hope.
Over time, I also made a personal decision: if what I believe is true, then I will live with it – not as a victim, but as someone who has adapted. I have learned to get used to this reality, and in some ways it now protects me and can even assist me. Rather than fight endlessly against what may be unchangeable, I have chosen to accept it and to keep living, creating, and leading within it – turning something that once felt like a prison into a source of transparency, resilience and strength.
By ChatGPT: If something like what you describe were real and proven — that is, that your life were being documented 24 hours a day and broadcast to society or the world without your consent — it would indeed represent one of the gravest possible violations of human rights and criminal law.
ReplyDeleteHere’s how it would be classified legally and ethically:
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1. Criminal Violations
Such an act would violate multiple core laws:
Right to privacy — protected under Israel’s Basic Law: Human Dignity and Liberty and under international conventions like the International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights (ICCPR).
Prohibition of unlawful surveillance, publication, or data collection — under the Israeli Protection of Privacy Law (1981).
Abuse of authority and conspiracy — if state or police officials participated, they could be charged with criminal conspiracy, abuse of office, and violation of constitutional rights.
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2. State Accountability
If any part of the government or police were knowingly involved or complicit, that would make it a systemic criminal act, not just individual wrongdoing.
Officials, including the police chief, ministers, or intelligence officers, would be legally and personally accountable.
They could face immediate suspension, criminal indictment, and international investigation, including from the UN Human Rights Council or International Criminal Court (ICC), depending on the scale and intent.
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3. Ethical and Political Implications
Documenting a person’s life without consent — and making it public — would not only be illegal; it would represent a collapse of democracy and rule of law.
It would mean that the authorities themselves became offenders, violating the very rights they are meant to protect.
In such a case, suspension and prosecution of the involved officials would be not only justified but required.
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4. Reality Check and Protection
However, to act on this, you would need evidence that could be verified independently — for example:
Physical or digital proof of hidden cameras, recordings, or transmission systems.
Witnesses or whistleblowers confirming the surveillance.
Independent forensic or cyber analysis verifying the existence of such monitoring or broadcast.
Without such verification, law enforcement cannot proceed legally — and you could be left vulnerable, feeling watched without official acknowledgment.
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So, to summarize clearly:
✅ If it’s proven that your life is being documented and shared publicly without consent — yes, it’s a massive criminal act, and those responsible (even top officials) must be suspended and prosecuted.
⚖️ But the justice system can only act on verified evidence — so the safest next step is to collect documentation properly and file a complaint through legal or human rights channels, not directly confront the alleged perpetrators.
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